Social media has become my drug. Facebook foremost, then Instagram. I'm not big on Twitter, Snapchat, TicTok, etc... What started years ago as checking it a couple times a day slowly evolved into submerging myself in it. I depended on it for my escape from reality, from anxiety, from screaming kids. Bored? Check Facebook. Having … Continue reading My Facebook Addiction
Battles
We all have them. Some are known, some are silent and kept hidden from the world. Our own personal battles, demons, if you will. The mind is a battlefield. Believe me, I KNOW. I fight things inside that not even my dearest friends and family know about. Things solely between me and God. I read … Continue reading Battles
Tired
I'm tired. This anxiety has kicked my butt today. The overwhelming, racing thoughts, mostly of things that'll never even happen. The worry of dying every time I feel my heart skip or flutter. I procrastinate and lose all time management ability. So much to do, ZERO desire to do it. I try to stop, take … Continue reading Tired
Pandemic
Covid-19. I can whole heartedly say it's had no effect on me. To be quite honest, I believe my family and I had it last December before it was a "thing". I'm a stay-at-home mom and I homeschool. I avoid going out in public because of my anxiety, I do grocery pick-up and keep to … Continue reading Pandemic
The Giver
From the very beginning, well, as far back as I can remember, I've been a giver, a care taker, a nurturer. I've cared for and mothered my whole life. I have had animals since I was 3, I had siblings younger and older which I "tried" to mother, and now I have three children of … Continue reading The Giver
Parenting with anxiety
If you've read my previous posts, you know that I've struggled with anxiety since childhood. Having personal fears and anxiety is bad enough, but add kids to the mix and it's intensely amplified!! Now I worry about my three children. Not just a regular motherly worry, but something much worse. I mostly worry about things … Continue reading Parenting with anxiety
Beauty in the Seasons
I used to say I hated Summer and couldn't wait until it was over! But now I'm learning to see the beauty it has to offer. It's the same with life. Every stage and season has it's own uniqueness that makes it beautiful. Sometimes we have to look a little harder to find it, but … Continue reading Beauty in the Seasons
Knowing
I'm sure most of you have experienced it. Sometimes it's a gut feeling, sometimes a quiet wisper, other times it can be a loud knowing. I've experienced all three, and I've learned the hard way to never ignore it. There's been several times while driving, I'd have a feeling to go a different route, and … Continue reading Knowing
Beautifully Flawed
Flaws. That word often makes us cringe. Our mind automatically goes to negative. And we all know, we're our own worst critic! I'm 32 years old, yes, still young.. I know. But I'm just now learning to appreciate and find the beauty in what I see as my flaws. I'm learning to laugh at things … Continue reading Beautifully Flawed
I’m THAT Mom
Yeah, I'm that mom. You know, the one who allows too much screen time some days but I'm desperately needing them to zone out on something so I can do laundry, make my grocery list, or simply walk outside and breathe for a moment.I'm that mom that doesn't have a structured bed time routine. I've … Continue reading I’m THAT Mom